I thought blondes had more fun....

Because of a crazy glitch in my mind, I had decided to go from my very dark hair to this unrecognizable blonde.

I will be going back to my original hair color because this blonde had nothing to offer me.  Yes, I know, it seems very trivial.  But like I told the woman who got to lighten my hair for the first time, I saw it as a catalyst for some kind of change.  

I definitely felt different about how I looked.  I was having giggle fits every time I looked in the mirror.  Obviously because I wasn't used to what I saw.  I liked it. I enjoyed the change for a while.  Ultimately, though, it did not bring any significant change or feeling that this was a whole new life or anything of the sort.  

In the end, it was just something I wanted to try.  In the end, it was damage to my hair.The novelty has worn off, and I am ready to bring back who I am. 

No, my dark hair does not define me.  But I definitely prefer not trying to change nature.

When your world crumbles...

It feels like your entire world has fallen.  Like that scene from 300, where the 300 men saw how detroyed the city or town was.  Nothing but rubble and decay.  Or just picture any post-apocalyptic image.

We feel like retreating into ourselves.  Or being wreckless, being self-destructive maybe, because nothing seems to matter anymore.  "Be strong." is not good enough advice.  How do you find strength when you feel like you're at an all-time low, where nothing seems right in your life?

(When I say "we," I mean "I," but hey I'm sure I'm not the only one that thinks or has thought this way)

No, it isn't about finding God.  I'm sorry for those who will feel offended.  To me, it's not the way to go.  Maybe there is one, and this pain I'm going through is a punishment for being a non-believer, but I digress.

We often forget about the people that are around us.  Those  who know you are going through pain, and are doing their utmost to get you out of that funk.  Friends and family.  We think that the world is over, that there is no escaping this heartache.  But we forget that our world includes more than that one person that we lost or hurt us.  I'm only human, so at the moment, I'm in the mindset that for now my world is in shambles, but I know that I can count on the people around me to help rebuild what has been destroyed, or help me see that my world never fell at all.